Happy New Year 2022

This year, 

I wish you love

Unconditional love 

From yourself 

I hope you light up those deepest, darkest places in you 

With your love 

I hope you forgive all your mistakes 

I hope you love your singing voice 

Irrespective of its likeness to a bird song or a donkey's bray 

I hope you love your dancing moves 

Irrespective of its likeness to a peacock or a duck 

I hope you love your body and its curves

Or the lack of it 

I hope you learn to love yourself without any *

Without any ? 

I hope you love yourself with the certainly of a .

For how do we love someone else

If we can't love ourselves first 

I wish you a wonderful New Year

Old you or new you, 

Whoever you are 

Alone or someone's

Whatever you are

I wish you love

Unconditionally. 

Hanging out with books (Not HP) - Chapter 1

I was enthralled and serenaded to sleep by Rachel McAdams last night. Jealous much?

I serendipitously stumbled upon an audiobook performed by Rachel and the book is Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery.

Move over Kate Winslet's Matilda, I have found a new favorite rendition.

The tone of her voice, the way she gets into each character and the mood of the story itself, such an abundance of pleasure to listen to at night (Of course would be quite similar during the day but I prefer the quiet of the night time).

Children's stories make better audiobooks. There's a lot of scope for the reader to make it interesting with all the highs and lows and the rhythm of the words used. 

It would be the similar case with horror or suspense I suppose, but I'm sort of scared to listen to Stephen King's novels at night (I'm yet to read one). Reading horror would affect me more than watching it as a movie. 

I did listen to Murder on the Orient Express performed by John Moffat and I was concentrating too much on understanding the words because I found the accent a bit too thick to casually follow. 

Though I'd give anything to listen to such a performance by Scarlett Johansson. 🐒

You could get the books too, if you wish. All of these are  on audible and should be available to download somewhere else too, I don't know 😛.

I'll try to share a little more every day as I progress with the books. Happy reading / listening! 

The chamber of secrets

Ooh, I kinda forgot that Chamber of Secrets is the funniest book of the series. Most credits to Gilderoy of course. The movie did not do enough justice to him. He was quite funny, yes, but a lot of memorable stuff got lost in the translation I suppose.

We all have our chamber of secrets. Probably (more like definitely) not the one like Salazar Slytherin built but something/someplace in our heart/mind where we have stuffed a few happy little secrets, shoved our dark, unsavory thoughts or actions and a lot of feelings that could not be shared or expressed due to the circumstances or limitations.

What starts off as a small bundle of eclectic stuff gradually and sometimes exponentially grows into an unwieldy infinitude. And at some point, it becomes so similar to a basilisk that looking at its eyes may take your life (excuse the exaggeration). Won't it be better to not let it get so huge instead?

Once we understand the issue at hand, maybe we could start addressing things one tiny bundle at a time and fix it if we can or just let go.

We have seen time and again that not everything is in our control. There's no use worrying about something that we know for a fact that we can't change. So why think about it, give it space and time? Let it go.

Let it gooooo (Belting off like Elsa)

Yup, started with HP and ending with Frozen, I'm becoming Benjamin Button, yes! (Ollivander would say Curious! Very curious! But I'm neither Harry nor Voldemort :P)

And I forgot talking about the good stuff like sweet gestures from someone that no one else noticed and we don't feel like sharing, tiny mischiefs and naughty stuff that we accomplished successfully without getting caught, etc. Keep them, nourish them and let them grow. They'll probably grow into a flowering plant or a fruitful tree. Let that tree take root and grow tall and wide and I hope it lights up whenever it is dark outside. 

July 31st draws near

I tend to be unusually active around this time of the year. No prizes if you guess the reason correctly. I mean it's plenty obvious, it's Harry's birthday.

Though I did write a little bit before I started reading the books, I did write a little more after reading the series. And I always find it easy to write around this time. Interesting content or not, I don't really know, but something flows like a fountain and tis the season. 

Lately though I have started feeling if I should keep up with the Potter stuff. 30 draws closer and 25 feels long gone. I'm getting older and maybe I am way old for this.

But I definitely will not let go of HP completely. It has become a part of me, part of who I am, part of how I express things. So yes, this is going to be a continuum. But I'll try to write about other things as well.

And I've decided to put up one post everyday. Yup, every single day. Idk if I'll be able to keep this up, maybe this is a good habit to have after all.

Here's to seeing you all again tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next and so on..

To new habits🥂 

Ramblings from a night, long long ago..

I dug a real deep hole for myself, like a rabbit burrowing down, looking for comfort and warmth 

And I got real comfortable, maybe just a little too much, like a frog in a boiling pot - enjoying the tiny bubbles

All these years of personal anguish has fallen like debris on top 

And the scalding vapour is starting to finally get to me

Now I have no other choice but to claw myself out of the hole

And climb on top of the hubris

And I need to do this one step at time

To keep my acrophobia in check

What am I gonna find on the top? Where am I gonna end up? 

On the sky? 

With the stars? 

With the Sun and the Moon? 

Under the clouds that brood dark overhead and rain thunderstorms? 

Or under a pile of more dust and dirt? 

Or is it a void devoid of sound and light? 

Or is it simply gonna be freedom?

The freedom of choice. 

Valentine's Day

Ah, it is Valentine's Day. For all the couples, Happy V Day! Have fun :)


For people like me, people who're in love but it's one sided, people who just don't care( Ha ha, I probably covered this ground with people like me, but some don't know me. Okay, a lot of you don't know me :P ), I'm posting this playlist.

There's Mad Max Fury Road premiering on HBO at 9. If you wanna watch that instead I'm not gonna tell you no. I myself am gonna watch it now.

If you have nothing else to do or something you can do with music playing in the background, then this playlist is for you. Also, if you are a Rahmaniac, then this is definitely for you.

Don't worry if you are not able to celebrate your love for some person. You can always celebrate your love for books, music, TV, movies and all the fun stuff.

I'm celebrating my love for music here.

The songs listed are in no particular order. Just enjoy falling in love with them.

*Kaadhal Sadugudu -- Alaipayuthey
This is one of the most romantic songs. Love the video, love the movie, love the actors (Duh..). The music, the lyrics and the rendition, whoa, love <3 Especially the waves kinda sound in the song. Absolute bliss.

*Sanda Kozhi -- Ayudha Ezhuthu
This song, this goose prickles creating, heart beat raising, makes you feel like you are flying song. You've gotta listen to it if you haven't before. You have already? Doesn't hurt listening again :P The lyrics are good, the rendition better, the part where ARR sings, the best..!! Love it, love it, love it!

*Nenjinile -- Uyire
One Janaki's song I completely love. No offense, but I'm not exactly a fan of her voice. This song though. The lyrics are a bit, you know. I mean, a good you know ;) It'll probably take you a while to understand. There's a bit Malayalam in it I did not get that, but I sing the song, all parts :D

*Nenjam Ellam -- Ayudha Ezhuthu
Another song with the lyrics a bit "you know". But this is one of the *awesomest* songs. Love it for the music and the lyrics. Not a fan of Esha Deol :P The music is a new level of sexiness. It just oozes love, the chemistry and physics and zoology :P You listen to it, you'll understand.

*Arabic Kadaloram -- Bombay
Whoahhh, the music!! ARR's the hero here. The rendition is super awesome. There's one part in the song, one between the stanzas, there's this music, it just takes you places, places high and higher. The lyrics, niiicee ;)

*Pudhu Vellai Mazhai -- Roja
The music! I don't know what instrument that is, but it is just mind blowing. The lyrics are also super awesome. This is ARR's first movie and this is one of my beloved songs. Can't really love anything more.

The list would just go on and on and on.. But I don't wanna write a novel about these songs, I would if I could, but I don't think I can describe these well enough. I'm not doing any justice to them. Just listen to all of these. I prefer wearing headphones/earphones. That way it's easy to get lost in the music.

Gone Girl

Gone Girl - The movie

Wow, watched the movie last night and the one thing that popped out in the end was "Gone Girl is a crazy new level of mindf***".

Damn, I watched it late at night and went to sleep but I couldn't. I was just lying there pondering about the story and the incidents and such. According to me, if any movie makes you think about it, makes you use your brain to wonder about it after you watch the movie, then it is a good movie. That means you haven't just wasted your time on nothing.

I know it's a thriller and all and that it's not exactly a horror movie. But the movie got me scared. Whoa, that's what kept me awake for a long time. The fact that it is possible in real life scared me a lot.

I know it's adapted from a novel and I am thinking the novel will be even more scarier because a lot of the context will be left to our imagination and I will imagine the worst thing almost every time.

I like Ben Affleck and he did suit the role well (though I have huge doubts about him "suiting" a "certain  role"). I should say I liked Argo better. Don't know why exactly, maybe because of the length of the movie. Gone Girl is a tad too long.

Rosamund Pike - the perfect match. She was absolutely perfect as Amy Dunne.

They did not use Neil Patrick Harris well enough, I mean we all know what he is capable of, our beloved Barney.

Overall good job by David Fincher, the cast and yes the screenplay was awesome!

I'd recommend y'all to watch it once.

p.s I was very careful not to give away any spoilers, so there's not much detailed description